my advice, which may come across as utterly impractical and completely idealistic, is that one’s motivation to work should never be for money or acquisitions. you should try to find a career or a job that you can’t not do, that’s how much you love it. my philosophy, in a (large) nutshell, is that when you love something, you’re good at it, and when you’re good at something, you’ll succeed/rise to the top. and then the rewards will come. looking at your question, my dearest Fre-ed-om, it seems that what you’re yearning for is the glamour of fashion. modeling at your height, honestly speaking, is darn near impossible (but maybe you should prove me wrong and go do it). I’d do some research on other careers out there—editor, writer, stylist, photographer, casting agent, set designer, the options are limitless—if you prepare well for it.
here’s a little secret (that took me, like, multiple decades to figure out): everyone feels the same way you do. everyone! some people are just better at hiding it. feeling a little in-over-your-head is a good thing in my opinion. it means you’ve found something that you truly care about, that you’re not jaded, that you’ve found your passion. I recently had the opportunity to meet a major player in the fashion industry while I was in Paris and I had butterflies—nay, elephants—in my belly. instead of chalking it up to intimidation, I thought, “okay, if I’m this OMG about this moment, it means a lot to me. that means I’m on the right path.” listen, you were smart/good/generally qualified enough to get that internship—they chose you. remember that. confidence will come with time, all good things do.
you’re a girl after my own heart. I only own two pairs of knee high boots (out of, oh, three hundred pairs of overall shoes) and neither of them are traditional knee high boots: both are Chanel, one are insane biker boots with a huge metal plate in the front (I wear them on snowy days), the others are their trouser boots (similar to Givenchy’s this season). I *love* a flat ankle boot, however, and have about thirty pairs of them from Zara (white, studded) to Miu Miu (crystal-bedecked, suede). these Coach boots are my new obsession too! at the end of the day, don’t feel like you have to dress the same way as other girls—be yourself, be interesting, be chic!
whoever you met with is, pardon my language, a complete dingbat. a complete dingbat. he or she has no idea what they’re talking about. first of all, I am not blonde with blue eyes either. in fact, I’d easily say 95 percent of the fashion world is not. think of the editor in chief of, oh, every single major fashion magazine in the US. I can’t think of a single stylist I know who has that Gwyneth Paltrowy look. I’ve said it once and I’ll say it again: success is predicated on a) your work ethic b) your ideas c) your ability to fuse the two. whoever you spoke to was projecting their own insecurities or issues onto you. don’t let their negativity derail your dreams.